The Burden
It has been on my mind for a while
how horrible it must have been for Kate Kelly. For it was Fitzpatrick's desire
for her that started the whole chain of horrific events. I can only imagine the
pain that she carried with her for the rest of her not so long life. This poem
will be one of two as I have words in my head already for her that seem to be
those of Ned's.
A pain that is
grief
Resting heavy in my chest
Never leaving me
Even in the times that
I laugh
A knowing of finality
That it will not be right again
The
guilt that I carry
Cannot be shared
For it was I that was to blame
The
one that Fitzpatrick came for
And my brothers and mother
They fought for
me
I was safe and warm
While they fled to the hills
Running and
hiding in the cold
A price put on their heads
When they killed in self
defence
All condemned for one mans lies
If I had gone to him
Lain
with him,
Given myself to him
Then this horror
Would never have
been
And we would not be as we are
Lost in this dark place
Where
there is nowhere for us
No beginnings or endings
Just an ongoing
existence
A sickness that will not leave me
Sorrow I will carry until
death